did i say that i loathe you

how do i move on? by taking long walks by myself, and taking the time for myself and appreciating the existence of old frens, whom i have shamelessly cast aside before... who have solemnly vow never to let themselves be abandoned (by me).

but the photograph on the shelf and the occasional wanderings of the mind always remind me of the things that has passed on by... and i let myself be taken away by it by abt 2mins, and then i blink my eyes and i (try to) forget it.

it has been a long week, and the chat with my good fren, Mel, has made opened up my views and perception. Sometimes, you need another guy's perspective to really put things in place... gal pals are great for soldiering on, to be your pom poms wavers... but more often than not, they are biased... and only bcos they care and they are my frens.

i don't hate you but we must really take the time away from each other. i shall take this time to be by myself... but @ the same time, i will not close doors to others...

the other day i received a bouquet of the nicest gerberas as a 'thank you' after a dinner date the night before... overwhelmed and utterly surprised by the gesture... it has been a long while since i received flowers from a guy!

on another separate note, accompanied a fren of mine to Tiffany's and as he bought for a gal a pair of knotted studs (very pretty!) i promised myself i am gonna get myself that bronze ring next week! it looked great on me and it's abt time i pamper myself.

as my frens and i sat over coffee, and debating over why he must buy a T&Co gift for a gal he just knew - was it cos he can well afford it? was it to impress her and get into her pants? or just that he felt like it? well, we all nvr know.. but i must say that not everything is quantifiable.. not everything is abt the dollar & cents... buy someone a gift just because he/she deserves it... no need for agendas, no need to put a "what-will-i-get-in-return" tag... and guys, not every gift needs to be bought... just a simple text message saying " i am thinking of you" or a wide smile and a peck on her cheeks are just as nice... just make sure it's sincere.

p/s: a T&Co ring really looks great on my finger. haha!

*gonna practice the yoga stance i learnt ystdy.... i shall put my mind at ease.. :)