irksome

you know what? some people are really oblivious to others or they are just shameless.

let me tell you why?

i've got this girlfren, who WAS the most creative, wacky, fun-loving and really really fun to be with... the one who always jumps with delight (literally!) and really excited about things. However, since she got on with this guy, she is no longer any of the above. REALLY! Along came her boyfriend, and POOF! went her charisma. Now she is this docile, clampy, and really boring. As if that is not enough, her boyfriend (now fiance) tags along at every gathering that we have - despite them clearly spelt as ALL-GIRLS-ONLY!

i am happy that she finally found someone who will take care of her and all, but when he is starting to impose himself on us (and it's just his presence ok.. i am not going to the part when he starts to converse and is all cocky k) and takes away the very essence of what's so unique about my girlfren, i doubt he is the best for her.

and it's getting quite sad actually. it's getting quite depressing that each one of us are starting to sulk at every gathering at the sight of them now, and it's worse when our gf is blind to it.

i can't believe i give her the benefit of the doubt before her every arrival, betting with other frens on whether he will come along or not. and i keep losing my bet$. and i am a sore loser.

i want my gf back... the one who is the sweetest, and fun and everything that she used to be. Fond memories. I wasn't even very close to her, and I miss her much. I think the rest must be reeling.

humanity

Let's get back to reality and the very basic thing that sets us apart from animals - humanity.

Stop the war... the killing... we may look different but the colour of the blood that we shed is the same - crimson.

Withdraw the foreign troops and let the country breathe and stand on its own. And everyone, just breathe and seek solace and practice tolerance. We must no longer be at war with each other any longer. At the rate we are going, God might as well send one huge rock from the sky and wipe us out.

been to hell... and back

i was determined to be discharged the other time as the pain has subsided tremendously and it was getting pretty miserable being in the ward. ( i was beginning to cry every single day from Day 4 onwards then)

but once home, the pain was back and by the 3rd day it was so severe, we went back to the hospital at 2am.

this time round, it proved what my instincts told me - the kidney stone is still inside me.

surgery was planned and done, stone removed and now back home, i have a rubber stent in me to help the passage between the kidney and the urinary tract. i can feel the hose everytime i pee... could feel it expand and contract and i cannot dilly dally shld i feel like peeing as it will hurt the longer i try to hold it in.

i am feeling better although temperature keeps spiking at night which makes me even weaker and recovery slowed down. but i am determined to get better... for i kinda missed work, and before my boss starts clearing my desk. i just wish i can burp easily for my chest is hurting with all the air just wanting to get out... i can't burp, i can't sneeze cos it hurts my side... gosh!

to all my frens, thanks for the constant prayers and well wishes.

worst state of my life

been missing in action for awhile now... well, got hospitalised over the weekend for what was thought to be back pain, turned out to be severe blood infection as well as kidney stones.

was in for 8 days, poked over 40times for blood, drips etc... horrible, not to mention the constant pain i felt.

but being (very) sick made me realise how close God is, as well as family.

parents slept by my side (or Mom, rather) and when she wasn't able to for it was taking quite a toll on her, the boyfriend (yes! he is back) will be the one sleeping on the hospital floor, one hand on my bed.

Tell me how much more selfless and kind they can be. I am so touched and i thanked God every single day for opening my eyes wide, never mind the pain and misery.