addicted to... ...

i lurve teh peng... lurve it lurve it lurve it!

and i am so glad, new wrkplace has stalls underneath it (not quite below la..) and the drinks stall, which my colleagues call i 'Du Du' serves great teh peng!

I show u my new wrk area... getting messy by the day, cos i am getting immersed in wrk (yet, still can update blog.. hehe!). From the pix, u can see my teh peng! today, we walked to china square and got it from mr teh tarik... it's a tad too potent, thick for my liking, but it will do. better than having a thin teh, rite?

also, ystdy we bought the famous pillow cake but today, we went late and the loaves are all sold out!! it is that famous, cos it is that good!! there's always another day... yeah! *slurp*

great weekend! okay monday

went to cafe del mar despite the drizzle...
my take on it:
great place to chill out.. with all those beds and seats.. you can sit and lepak there for hours! and expect some smooching and heavy groping... well, the men are in surf shorts and gals in bikinis... so just imagine!!

not quite great for those who loves to dance, as the music is rather chill-out, sounds kinda techno jazzy... very ibiza la (d-uh!), but cool!! will go there again, but not so soon!

As for today, wel.. Monday... how interestig can Mondays be? but i'll get through it.
yeah!

the love song

make love, not war!
Enjoy!

Sade - By Your Side

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love or lust

my good fren, @ndi, confuses me...

he commented i am writing rubbish on my blog.. but then, this is MY blog.. and he refused to post comments... *roll eyes*

anyway, he said.. which is more important: love or lust?
i told him, love cos love lasts (which he rebutted, if love lasts, why are there so many break-ups?... then ms smarty-ass here thinks it's cos those aren't real love... and every love is bound by circumstances, situations...)

anyway, he said love is for ugly people.. they need to love then will get sex. haha! really meh!
so it means the ugly are loving their partners just for IT?

and with that, which is better? love sex or lust sex?
to men, i am sure, there is no difference... sex sex sex... regardless of the nature, the emotions behind it... just give them SEX!

but i'd say, lust sex makes things so much fun! i am imagining being pushed against the wall (ala Unfaithful or Mr and Mrs Smith)... and some role-playing.. basically spontaneous, hot sex.

if love sex, imagine The Notebook... and all other romantic, slow-mo make out scenes... shld be less strenuous, but still hot, with all the emotion heating the couple up... hmmmm... *dreamy*

waddya think?

trust and love... mutually needy

yesterday the boyfriend (yes, we are back together!) and i had another quarrel [yes, yes.. the moment we decided to get married and pledge our lifetimes together, the more cranky we are (blame him la!)]

it's all cos of my (over-)excitement about the long-lost cute MRT guy! the boyfriend accused me of being excited about him (true!) and all turned on cos of him (false!!) and that the reason why i wanted to make out with him is cos of the cute mrt guy... *roll eyes* i am so misunderstood!

and so i told him... if he cannot trust me anymore, then what's the point? then he will suspect every touch, every kiss, every movement from me is cos i have someone else in my mind! then me, the smarty-ass, went on and on and on (yes, with tears included) to prove my point and he caved in... *phew*

but he asked... which is more important: love or trust?

and so, again ms-smarty-pants replied: Love shld come first... with love, you trust that your partner will love u as much (or even more) and will not do anything to hurt you. As love grows, trust should increase too, along with faith and loyalty, and that's how the commitment quotient comes about.

And this brings me back to the Corinthian passage... love is not selfish ... ... ... how true!

anyway, dear boyfriend of mine... this song is for you (and can we not quarrel anymore?!)

Tina Arena - I Want to Spend My Lifetime Loving You (Duet with Marc Anthony)

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a new song...

is this song about loving/wanting someone else?
hmmm...

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it's a great Monday!

the day started out very well... very very well indeed! And all cos of ONE PERSON!

remember the cute MRT guy? he whom i thought have disappeared from this TINY island (and made me very very sad) ahs since reappeared!!! at the same MRT station, at the same time as before!!

and better, since i have left my old wrkplace, i now alight at the SAME station, SAME exit at Tanjong Pagar! and i got to see how he walked, and let me tell you... very nice behind he has! (now now... i am not a butt person, but oooh! so imagine wild thots... i'm getting hot just thinking abt him AGAIN!)

*swoon*

p/s: and work at new wrkplace has been great! hope it will remain so for some time!! hate to job-hop again.

misery in audio

and since i am on a roll about songs (aren't songs/music the best way to communicate your feelings? your moods?), here's one i will listen to when i am on a heartbreak or when i am down (and making myself feel even more miserable.. way to go!)

My Immortal - Evanescence

i'm so tired of being here
suppressed by all my childish fears
and if you have to leave
i wish that you would just leave
cause your presence still lingers here
and it won't leave me alone
these wounds won't seem to heal
this pain is just too real
there's just too much that time cannot erase

[chorus]
when you cried
i'd wipe away all of your tears
when you'd scream
i'd fight away all of your fears
i held your hand through all of these years
but you still have
all of me

you used to captivate me
by your resonating life
now i'm bound by the life you left behind
your face it haunts
my once pleasant dreams
your voice it chased away
all the sanity in me

these wounds won't seem to heal
this pain is just too real
there's just too much that time cannot erase

[chorus]

i've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
but though you're still with me
i've been alone all along

[chorus]

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my woman-power song

i was telling my fren, Mel, about how emancipated I get when i hear Beyonce's 'Irreplaceable'.

I feel so empowered by the song! haha!

Standing in the front yard telling me
How I'm such a fool - Talking about
How I'll never ever find a man like you
You got me twisted

You must not know about me
You must not know about me
I could have another you in a minute
matter fact he'll be here in a minute - baby

You must not know about me
You must not know about me
I can have another you by tomorrow
So don't you ever for a second get to thinking
You're irreplaceable

So go ahead and get gone
And call up on that chick and see if she is home
Oops, I bet ya thought that I didn't know
What did you think I was putting you out for?
Cause you was untrue
Rolling her around in the car that I bought you
Baby you dropped them keys hurry up before your taxi leaves

Standing in the front yard telling me
How I am such a fool - Talking about
How I'll never ever find a man like you
You got me twisted

You must not know about me
You must not know about me
I could have another you in a minute
matter fact he'll be here in a minute - baby

You must not know about me
You must not know about me
I will have another you by tomorrow
So don't you ever for a second get to thinking
You're irreplaceable

So since I’m not your everything
How about I'll be nothing
Nothing at all to you
Baby I wont shed a tear for you
I won't lose a wink of sleep
Cause the truth of the matter is
Replacing you is so easy

To the left To the left To the left To the left To the left To the left

Everything you own in the box to the left

To the left To the left

Don't you ever for a second get to thinking
You're irreplaceable

You must not know about me
You must not know about me
I could have another you in a minute
matter fact he'll be be here in a minute - baby

You must not know about me
You must not know about me
I can have another you by tomorrow
Don't you ever for a second get to thinking
You're irreplaceable

Beyonce Irreplaceable



btw, mel and i caught Forbidden Chestnuts last night and it was FABULOUS! be prepared to crack your ribs, watchin the actors immerse themselves in mocking other shows and celebs! A must-watch!

my love song...

What day is it? And in what month?
This clock never seemed so alive
I can't keep up and I can't back down
I've been losing so much time

Cause it's you and me and all of the people with nothing to do
Nothing to lose
And it's you and me and all other people
And I don't know why, I can't keep my eyes off of you

All of the things that I want to say just aren't coming out right
I'm tripping on words You've got my head spinning
I don't know where to go from here

Cause it's you and me
And all of the people with nothing to do
Nothing to prove
And it's you and me and all other people
And I don't know why, I can't keep my eyes off of you

There's something about you now
I can't quite figure out
Everything she does is beautiful
Everything she does is right

Cause it's you and me
And all of the people with nothing to do
Nothing to lose
And it's you and me and all other people
And I don't know why, I can't keep my eyes off of you
And me and all other people
With nothing to do
Nothing to prove
And it's you and me and all other people
And I don't know why, I can't keep my eyes off of you

What day is it?And in what month?
This clock never seemed so alive

-Lifehouse 'You and Me'

*sigh* I wish someone would dedicate this song to me... or that this song reminds him of me...

Lifehouse - You And Me

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love...

I love being in love. Who doesn't, right?

Love makes all things serene. I'll get so light-footed, i feel like a ballerina, walking on my toes, ever so nimble, so gentle. And somehow, i am surrounded by the enchanted forest, leaves gently rustling in the background, the grass all wet and nice to the feet (think Bambi), birds whistling (think Snow White the cartoon)... (Disney personifies this image superbly well!)

Love makes me forget how broke i actually am.. for i usually end up splurging on the person... though the gifts may not be LV/Gucci, they are still quite pricey, esp for my oh-so-shallow pockets...

Love makes me hear music... it also helps that 'Love Songs' on Class 95 plays great lovey-dovey romantic songs... haha! I just hope that I will get the same feeling, the same idealistic moment when I have found 'The One' and opera starts playing in the background (ala Barbra Streisand in that movie.. oh gosh! that movie! the title escapes my mind! the one with the soundtrack of "I Finally Found Someone"?)

When in love, and am loved, i get to be called other than my name... "baby", "hunny bunny", "honey", "sexy" (and other sweet variations of it, and in different languages). But my favourite: "babe"... *swoon* it can be simply put eg. "see u later, babe" *smiles*

Love makes me wanna smell good, look good... it helps that the guy who adores me sings praises of me (see above)... makes me wana slather on that Marc Jacobs' Blush body lotion and body shimmer, spray Estee Lauder's 'Pleasures' at the core spots... with the hope i will get lucky! haha! Women do think of IT k... we just hide it better than you guys.. (thanks to padded bras to hide our mating signal(s)... u guys are more obvious.. *chuckles*) -- okay, is this part Love, or Lust? hmmm...

With that, i love Love cos it makes me all hot, and passionate and very very pretty... the hair falls into place, the nails all shiny, the skin all radiant.. Oestrogen working its wonders!

And so i hope that you are feeling all of the above and even better! Everyday, and especially on Valentine's Day! make love, not war. haha!

p/s: but it doesn't count if you are in love with yourself, hor! hah!

of power ranger, fahmie and me

my nephew is currently on a power ranger (PR) craze... so much that he wants me to marry one! it began with him and his kompang (a malay hand drum, usually played in weddings) and he was happily beating away. then i asked, "Who are you drumming for?" and he said "i am practicing for you la!" after going back and forth abt the whole affair, i finally asked "so, who am i getting married to?" and so the chubby smarty-pants said "Power Ranger la!"

and so, Mr Power Ranger, propose to me with your sabre whatever... so that my cutey can play his kompang and be in his own blue PR suit as well, and we can start our own PR family... ooh! how protected I will feel (and i'll be quite rich too! imagine all the royalties, tv shows, appearances... ok.. i am getting carried away now)

Oh! If there is a white PR, then only Mr White Power Ranger need apply pls.. cos I think he looks especially cute! hah!

romance

"sememangnyer hati ku ini kau dah miliki
kau lah segalanyer buat ku sayang...
biler dikupas aper yang tersurat dan tersirat
akan tetap bermaksud,
aku cinta dan sayang padamu"

(rough translation: this heart is truly yours, darling, you are everything to me, even if you dwell and decipher, pick and tear at it, it will still mean: I love you)

I chanced upon the above... apparently a note penned for his lover...

Such words... i've often thought it extinct from this concrete world, and yet here it is... i adore such loving words... such words and declaration can only come straight from one's heart and will penetrate through the other...

so uplifting... it makes my day just reading it.

Don Juan/Casanova of mine... where can you be?

where have all the fireworks gone?

ending 2006 wasn't done with a bang. in fact, i did nothing at all, except being in front of the telly with my chubby nephew (though we caught a glimpse of the fireworks from my bedroom window).

and welcoming 2007 was a dread. whilst everyone was anticipating a positive year, me on the other hand, am quite pessimistic. feeling quite down. a feeling i haven't been pally with for quite some time, andyet i think gloomy is the new chic. for me.

i told the (ex-) boyfriend that i resolute to be independent of him, and how numb i am... i did not mention that i will try to be less petty (how to? when i know i am not, and i have testaments from my frens that i'm not)... why do ppl come up with "love me, love my family" phrase? it's quite hard to undertake, to embrace especially when you don't quite adore the latter? can i just do it for him who "did not exactly break up with me", whom i think i am still in love with.

so can somebody tell me... do i just smile and grit my teeth throughout this whole thing when what i am actually feeling is incredible nothingness? i am utterly emotionless.

Oh God, can you show the (ex-) boyfriend his true love? I know you have a lot of other important and urgent things on your mind and to do, but can you spare just one second and grant me this wish? Cos i don't quite feel that i am his 'The One'. Or if we are meant to be together, pls give me that heartbeat, that tingly feeling, that warmth which i think i used to feel.

8 august 2008 is not very far from now. and we need a clue. Fast.